Monday, April 11, 2011

Monday Morning

It is always hard for me to get up Monday mornings, the start of the work week. I always feel that if I could just put it off, then my work week will go so much better. It never does. Last week I didn't work on Monday, so Tuesday felt like Monday all day.

It isn't that I have a five day work week. I wish that I did. I only work one to two days, and I go to school two days. However, the two days at school are also from 8:30 in the morning to sometimes 10:00 at night. So really, I do have a four day work week I just don't get paid for all of it. Even when I am at the office working, if I run out of things to actively do, then I "clock out" and work on non-work things. Today, for example, I need to take a midterm for my Budgeting class. That will be quite a few hours of my time.
The days just seem to drag on forever.

Friday, April 8, 2011

Happy Friday

TGIF! With all of my midterms this has been a tough week. And yes, I still have one more midterm to finish over the weekend. However, after I finish that and the two papers I need to write and clean the house, I should be able to just read, knit, and anything else I want to fill my time on.

Two more weeks before my airplane trip to Texas to visit Jen's parents. I am looking forward to it this year. I am trying to get all of my school work done in advance so that I can enjoy the week.

After that there will be just four more months before Jen and I move down there. Her dad is so excited. He already has a place picked out for us to live. We will get to see it during the week we are there.

In the knitting world, I am almost finished with the first skein on this last baby blanket that I want to do for a while. On my other project, I need to weave in the ends to the afghan, then wash it, block, and be done with it. It is the first afghan that I have made for myself. After I finish the baby blanket, I hope to do some work on the sweater for Alyssa. So far I have only managed to get the back done. As soon as I get home, (posting from the office again), I will take some pictures of what I am talking about. Even though I know no one is going to ever read this, it is nice to have my accomplishments out in cyberspace.

On that note, everyone have a wonderful and safe weekend!

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Ignoring daily life!

So over the weekend I went to see SuckerPunch. I thought it was awesome, but it made me think alot about myself. When I was a kid I had no friends, so I lived in my imagniation. When I finally did find a friend, we used to make up stories about ourselves. We would be supper heroes and go around saving the world.

Now as an adult, I get lost in the books I read and the movies I watch. I find myself incorporating these fantasy stories into the stories I used to make up, because as it turns out, I never stopped the internal story. It has changed through the years, just as I have changed. That's why you see the name Serenity attached to almost everything I do. She is my alter ego, the person I want to be. Yes I lot of what happens in her world is physically impossible, but there in lies the fun. Who wouldn't want to be able to take names and kick ass? Who wouldn't want to have supper human abilities? Who wouldn't want to do anything they wanted to?

So, so what if I lose time wandering around in my mind. Who cares if I sometimes wish Serenity was really me and Monica was the fantasy? That I could get past the crap that has been my life? That I could make dreams happen?

Thursday, January 20, 2011


It has been a while since I last posted anything. I can form things to say in my mind, but can never get it on the blog. I recently finished the back to Alyssa's sweater. If I had a decent camera I would put up a picture. I don't, so no pictures for a while.
I have been trying to do my Ethics homework. I started out with needing to read seven chapters and writing eight papers. I am down to needing to read two chapters and writing four papers. I have a problem with the material and the way it is presented in the text. One thing about it is in the study of ethics there is a need to be impartial, not letting personal opinions get in the way. However, you can see the author's personal opinion throughtout the material. Some of it is supposed to be their opinion, but most is supposed to be an objective look at the issues. Another thing, it is really hard to be objective when sucide is not considered morally wrong. My own background, (a child whose mother committed sucide), screams against that. The whole thought that sucide is a personal and individual choice and doesn't involve family and friends just seems very selfish to me. Sucide is a very selfish way to not deal with problems. My mother could have sought help to get away from her husband instead of putting a bullet in her brain. At least that is what I think.
I just need to get through the next four weeks, then I can be done with this class forever. Never again do I have to listen to someone telling me that death is good or that rape is sometimes not morally wrong.
Next post will have more on books and knitting, I just need to get this off my chest.